amazing luck

I must be the luckiest
man in the world

over and over again
finding myself in situations
that have wrecked so many
so many other lives
and yet I managed
to come out of them
unscathed

of course I had to deal with
anxiety, depression and
the worst of all: insomnia
a result of the PTSD
that came with
living through those situations

but it helped me it
helped me so much
as it drove me
drove me to learn
psychology, philosophy
neurology, and theories of the
mind and its emotions

it helped me to grow

it brought me here
brought me safe thus far
had amazing luck

it made me stronger

now I hear the birdsongs
the rustling of the leaves
clearer than ever before

the sun is just not enough
we also need some rain
to feel this rainbow inside